Final entry

I hope the person that emailed me to tell me Kaitlyn probably killed herself because we put too much pressure on her to succeed is quite happy with himself. He said all I do is go around talking about her achievements and we probably put too much pressure on her and she killed herself due to this.

I talked about her achievements because I was proud of her and my burning question was how someone that can achieve that much be unhappy. We never put pressure on her to succeed, never, ever; she was born wanting to succeed.

I am way too sensitive and grieve stricken to be opening myself up to remarks such as this and I’m insulted and hurt. I’ve gotten many positive responses to my blog and great support, and I’m thankful for that. I’ve said everything I can possibly say, and asked every possible question I can think of, and Kaitlyn’s memory and accomplishments speak for themselves. My soul can’t take remarks like that, even from an idiot.

I’ve said this before, and changed my mind, but this is my final entry in this blog. I will grieve privately for her from now on. I just can’t deal with that kind of insensitive crap.

But thank you to all that have been kind and supportive.

I’ll love you always Kaitlyn and you’ll be forever remembered in my heart, and in the hearts of all that loved you, and remembered for all the positive impact you’ve made on countless people. You’ll be remembered within us, but not on this blog anymore where any fool can say anything to hurt me.

About gatito2

My name is Rhonda. I'm a registered nurse, for the last 20 years, that has not been able to work since the day I learned of my daughter's death by suicide 4-12-13. (She actually died 4-11-13 and her body was not found until the 12th) Me and my husband have been married for 32 years and he's a wonderful man. We grieve in different ways. He works, I write. This is my journey through this horrible land of losing a child..
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6 Responses to Final entry

  1. Bridget Barnes says:

    Mrs. Rhonda ….please dont stop talking about your baby girl…people need your thoughts and feelings….I know I do myself….and to hear your feelings and tenderness are so sweet and l oving. I look forward to reading your blog throughout the day and have grown to love you and your family. I know we have never met but I feel as if I have known you all my life now. Dont let that insensitive jerk make you stop talking aboit sweet Kaitlin….dont let anyone stop you….please keep writing…I look so forward to it….take care and may you have peace and comfort…..much love to you…..Bridget ♥

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  2. Carrie Lange says:

    aww, hon… this makes me so sad. 😥 Please, PLEASE find a grief support group, and esp. a survivor of suicide group. You will not get ANY insensitive jerks there. Also, consider seeing a grief counselor. Please find a support group, I promise it will make a world of difference, although nothing will lessen the pain. But you will feel supported in your pain. hugs to you. I hope you will blog again. 🙂

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  3. katriter says:

    How awful! This terrible person who emailed you couldn’t have known you or your daughter. The love and support you shared is so obvious. There are just some unhappy people in this world who want others to feel as miserable and guilty as they do. Don’t let such creatures get under you skin. Karma will come around on them one day. Please get some professional help and also continue this blog. I believe that Kaitlyn feels each word. You are helping so many.

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  4. gatito2 says:

    Thank you. I decided not to pay that person any attention. I’m just so sensitive right now. I do get professional help. I see a psychiatrist and a counselor. I’m still so very sad and there’s just no way around it.

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  5. gatito2 says:

    I realized I never did respond to your post. I didn’t mean not to respond, I guess I don’t think sometimes here lately. Thank you so much for your comment. I will keep posting.

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  6. gatito2 says:

    Thank you Carrie.

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