My words are inadequate

I find my words useless and inadequate in my head, so I certainly can’t write anything therapeutic for myself right now. I am just so, very, very sad. So very, very sad. So in that case, I resort to Finding Nemo, The best of Dory scenes, one of the movies me and Kaitlyn loved and makes me smile still….and I think of her.

About gatito2

My name is Rhonda. I'm a registered nurse, for the last 20 years, that has not been able to work since the day I learned of my daughter's death by suicide 4-12-13. (She actually died 4-11-13 and her body was not found until the 12th) Me and my husband have been married for 32 years and he's a wonderful man. We grieve in different ways. He works, I write. This is my journey through this horrible land of losing a child..
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2 Responses to My words are inadequate

  1. Linda L. Johnson says:

    Mrs. Elkins,
    I do not know you, and I did not know Kaitlyn. However I did remember her name. I work for Whiteville City Schools, and worked at Central for a while in the office. I’m thinking Kaitlyn may have been a CMS when I worked there. I saw on facebook where one of my friends commented on your post, and I found your blog. I just want to say, keep writing. My heart aches for you, and the pain you are going through. Don’t ever let anyone discourage you from writing. After reading your blog, and talking with a few Whiteville High School teachers, I know what a wonderful daughter you had in Kaitlyn. Everyone spoke so highly of her, and were so sad to hear of her death. Your writing seems to have a way of getting out your feelings, and showing others how you feel, reasons why you feel that way, and ways of expressing all the emotions you have. Please keep writing, I know Kaitlyn would be proud. I’ve never been through any type of suicide with any family or friends, but reading your blogs gives me understanding of this silent killer.
    I just want to tell you that you are in my thoughts and heart.


  2. gatito2 says:

    Thank you so much! Kaitlyn was a very wonderful person from the time she was born and always an excellent student. Those that knew her always spoke very highly of her. We were, and still are, very proud of her. She was a wonderful daughter. She hid her depression from us for reasons I don’t know, but can only guess at. We are heartbroken, shocked, and will never be the same. Thank you so much for commenting about her on my blog. I don’t think I can stop writing, my mind and fingers don’t seem to stop. We loved her SO VERY MUCH.


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