Shiny, happy people

I feel guilty, so guilty and ashamed, that when I see happy people all around, posting happy things, happy events, I’m envious of their happiness. I don’t begrudge their happiness, but it feels like a slap in the face of my intense pain and I wish with all my might that the reason of my sadness never happened.

Shiny happy people laughing
Meet me in the crowd
People people
Throw your love around
Love me love me
Take it into town
Happy happy
Put it in the ground
Where the flowers grow
Gold and silver shine
Shiny happy people laughing
Shiny happy people holding hands
Everyone around love them, love them
Put it in your hands
Take it take it
There’s no time to cry
Happy happy
Put it in your heart
Where tomorrow shines
Gold and silver shine
Shiny happy people laughing
Shiny happy people holding hands

song by REM

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About gatito2

My name is Rhonda. I'm a registered nurse, for the last 20 years, that has not been able to work since the day I learned of my daughter's death by suicide 4-12-13. (She actually died 4-11-13 and her body was not found until the 12th) Me and my husband have been married for 32 years and he's a wonderful man. We grieve in different ways. He works, I write. This is my journey through this horrible land of losing a child..
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