Monthly Archives: June 2013

My Immortal

Ever since this song came out, around 2004 or something like that, it was Kaitlyn’s favorite song. It remained one of her favorites. Part of the title to this song was even in one of her email addresses. But I … Continue reading

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I Think of You at Night

I Think of You at Night I think of you at night, I think of you in golden light, Your memories all linger still Out on the grass from my window sill. I see you as you played, Swinging to … Continue reading

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Things I’m sorry for

Kaitlyn, I just want to tell you some things that I am sorry for that I did or didn’t do when you were growing up and all. 1. I’m sorry I spanked you when you were little for going UP … Continue reading

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“……a gift you never intended to receive”

Kaitlyn, it’s now 6-11-13, two months since you have been gone. My life will never be the same without you in it; without your bright sunshine you always brought to me. Your whole life all I had to do is … Continue reading

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Starry, Starry night

I never paid attention to the lyrics of this song when it came out many years ago. But it’s about a brilliant artist that took his own life years ago. Vincent Van Gogh. Not the same situation as my Kaitlyn, … Continue reading

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The towels, the hand towel, the washcloth

Doing laundry today. Took one of the sets of towels, hand towel, and wash cloth that I took from your apartment bathroom and put them in my main bathroom (I kept all of your things like that to use them). … Continue reading

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I think my problem is….

I think my problem is, that any semblance of shock I experienced after Kaitlyn’s death, has now worn completely off. The thin layer of numbness after the loss of someone you love so very much, is like a buffer which … Continue reading

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Very good help and information

Never mind that thing about my quitting blogging. I get like that sometimes then change my mind. I’m not very rational right now. Anyway: I’ve been conversing with someone knowlegable in suicide in people you wouldn’t suspect were depressed. I … Continue reading

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Final entry

I hope the person that emailed me to tell me Kaitlyn probably killed herself because we put too much pressure on her to succeed is quite happy with himself. He said all I do is go around talking about her … Continue reading

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My Burning Question

My burning question. I have many burning questions in my mind since you took your life Kaitlyn. So very, very many. But the one burning question I have in my mind and heart right now is how someone so accomplished … Continue reading

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