Stephanie’s poem at her sister’s funeral

Kaitlyn’s funeral was a surreal event for me. I didn’t even feel like I was in my own body, or maybe I was in a dream. I remember all the kind words and the faces that voiced their sorrow to us, but it seems like I was in some fog, a horrible, awful acid fog. For me, the funeral was not the worst thing of the whole experience, believe it or not. The worst was hearing the news of her death, then seeing her at the visitation for the first time, then having to go clean out her apartment. Now of course is the living through the hell I’m living through. The funeral I was still in shock. My daughter Stephanie wrote a poem which was read at the funeral. I asked her to please type down what she wrote again for me and she did. I thought ya’ll might like to read it too.

I miss you already
It’s barely been an hour
Since I got the news
My heart is shattered
Ripped only in fragments
I am angry
And sad
Not yet numb
But I weep nonetheless
Because I’ll never see you again
And I don’t know how to deal with that
I wish I could have helped
I would have listened
But I know it’s too late
I just want you to know
That I love you
Now and forever