Rocks in an overcoat

Virginia Woolf, you put those rocks in the overcoat you were wearing and you walked your beautiful, creative, brilliant, troubled self right into the river and ended your inner torment March of 1941. You left many books behind as your legacy and you will go on. So sad that the brilliant sometimes cannot stay.

You wrote your husband a suicide note:

“ Dearest, I feel certain that I am going mad again. I feel we can’t go through another of those terrible times. And I shan’t recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can’t concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don’t think two people could have been happier ’til this terrible disease came. I can’t fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can’t even write this properly. I can’t read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that—everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can’t go on spoiling your life any longer. I don’t think two people could have been happier than we have been. V.”

Goodbye Virginia Woolf, from someone who never knew you.

Woolf

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About gatito2

My name is Rhonda. I'm a registered nurse, for the last 20 years, that has not been able to work since the day I learned of my daughter's death by suicide 4-12-13. (She actually died 4-11-13 and her body was not found until the 12th) Me and my husband have been married for 32 years and he's a wonderful man. We grieve in different ways. He works, I write. This is my journey through this horrible land of losing a child..
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5 Responses to Rocks in an overcoat

  1. Aimer Shama says:

    Her writing was incredible yet I never got it.

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  2. gatito2 says:

    Some people’s writing is hard to get I admit. 🙂

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  3. Aimer Shama says:

    So how do you even get her writing? I mean… social drama bores me to tears. I only like them if they’re historical mixes with thriller… although I did like the Casual Vacancy a bit…

    Yeah I’m weird… probably should give Woolf another shot…

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  4. Aimer Shama says:

    Reblogged this on Thebipolarized.com and commented:
    Must not resist reading for Virginia Woolf anymore. So many people say she’s awesome and I should give her another chance.
    Rest in peace, sweet Virginia, the beautiful of the beautiful.

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  5. gatito2 says:

    Well, I’m not so much a fan of her writing as I am saddened from one more example of a brilliant mind that could no longer bear to live.

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