A Quote From Author William Styron

I recently discovered that the author William Styron suffered from depression. He wrote the book Sophie’s Choice, amonng other thngs. I found a quote that was very profound and explains what it feels like to be depressed and I wanted to share. I know this feeling and Kaitlyn must have felt it too.

“In depression this faith in deliverance, in ultimate restoration, is absent. The pain is unrelenting, and what makes the condition intolerable is the foreknowledge that no remedy will come- not in a day, an hour, a month, or a minute. If there is mild relief, one knows that it is only temporary; more pain will follow. It is hopelessness even more than pain that crushes the soul. So the decision-making of daily life involves not, as in normal affairs, shifting from one annoying situation to another less annoying- or from discomfort to relative comfort, or from boredom to activity- but moving from pain to pain. One does not abandon, even briefly, one’s bed of nails, but is attached to it wherever one goes. And this results in a striking experience- one which I have called, borrowing military terminology, the situation of the walking wounded. For in virtually any other serious sickness, a patient who felt similar devistation would by lying flat in bed, possibly sedated and hooked up to the tubes and wires of life-support systems, but at the very least in a posture of repose and in an isolated setting. His invalidism would be necessary, unquestioned and honorably attained. However, the sufferer from depression has no such option and therefore finds himself, like a walking casualty of war, thrust into the most intolerable social and family situations. There he must, despite the anguish devouring his brain, present a face approximating the one that is associated with ordinary events and companionship. He must try to utter small talk, and be responsive to questions, and knowingly nod and frown and, God help him, even smile. But it is a fierce trial attempting to speak a few simple words.”

William Styron author of Sophie’s Choice who suffered depression.

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My name is Rhonda. I'm a registered nurse, for the last 20 years, that has not been able to work since the day I learned of my daughter's death by suicide 4-12-13. (She actually died 4-11-13 and her body was not found until the 12th) Me and my husband have been married for 32 years and he's a wonderful man. We grieve in different ways. He works, I write. This is my journey through this horrible land of losing a child..
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15 Responses to A Quote From Author William Styron

  1. JCox says:

    Thank you for this enlightening quote.

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  2. jmgoyder says:

    I would be there too if not for the medication which has saved me from a despair that had no rhyme or reason. Thank you for sharing your findings and wisdom when every day must be intolerably difficult.

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  3. A Hot Mess says:

    He said it well.

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  4. Topaz says:

    Thank you, Rhonda. Good to hear from you! *hug*

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  5. gatito2 says:

    You’re welcome.

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  6. gatito2 says:

    You’re welcome. I just never knew he had depression and I had seen some quotes he wrote and found them so truthful. Like he said, it’s hard for someone to understand the feeling if they have not been through it.

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  7. gatito2 says:

    I think so too.

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  8. gatito2 says:

    You’re welcome. Like I said, I’m not completely stopping blogging, just perhaps slowing down. Not because I feel better though, certainly not that. I feel worse if anything. But if I have something to offer that I have not repeated 1000 times already or something helpful, I will post. Thank you Topaz.

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  9. If you haven’t already done so, Darkness Visible is also his memoir on depression. I find his cauldron analogy very powerful.

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  10. Topaz says:

    Dear Rhonda,

    As long as you’re going at your own pace and doing what helps you, then I support it. Just so you know, I will never grow tired of reading about Kaitlyn, even if it’s repeated.

    Love,

    Topaz

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  11. gatito2 says:

    I was thinking about ordering that book on my Kindle.

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  12. gatito2 says:

    Thank you Topaz.

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  13. SusanB says:

    There is huge gratefulness when hope washes over my head, the clouds lift and the air is not heavy and it is easier to draw a full breath. I can’t imagine never getting a break from the pain.

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  14. gatito2 says:

    Is that another quote from him or you?

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  15. SusanB says:

    It’s how I feel.

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