I was going through Kaitlyn’s old closet the other day and came across something her Nanny (her grandmother Elkins) gave her when she graduated High School. It was a big picture album full of pictures during her life and also all of the newspaper writes ups about things she was in and programs for graduation, etc. Her grandmother did this for each of her grandchildren when they graduated high school. (She has 4). In this were many things I had forgotten about. I’m sure I have them in the chest of things I have kept of Kaitlyn’s things all these years, but some, I don’t remember.

Below is a poem Kaitlyn wrote when she was 11. It’s the poem of a child, but the last lines touched me deeply. This was in a poetry contest and won honorable mention.

I’m going to post other things that have come out of this album soon but I wanted to start with this. I want my blog to be filled with all memories of her. The wonderful life she had along with my sadness at losing her. I just can’t believe the child was sad all her life. So much good, sweetness and happiness came from her. It’s so unfair that she suffered in silence.

A poem by Kaitlyn when she was 11 years old.

Are always looking down on us.
They see everything from up there.
They live on clouds,
And they always care.
Are perfect, in every way.
They love to make you smile,
And when you’re very sad,
They go the extra mile.
Wings are made of silver,
Their harps are made of gold
Their castle is made of sunflowers,
As we are told.
Come and fly around us.
They swirl around every day.
And every time they visit,
They make things okay.
Love everyone on Earth,
And they will come to meet me,
Then we will be
Forever in eternity.

Kaitlyn Elkins 5th grade 2001.

I hope your angel was there with you when you left this earth Kaitlyn. I love you.

About gatito2

My name is Rhonda. I'm a registered nurse, for the last 20 years, that has not been able to work since the day I learned of my daughter's death by suicide 4-12-13. (She actually died 4-11-13 and her body was not found until the 12th) Me and my husband have been married for 32 years and he's a wonderful man. We grieve in different ways. He works, I write. This is my journey through this horrible land of losing a child..
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6 Responses to Angels

  1. mcfcwolf says:

    This is raw courage and strength – to post to write to grieve – may your GOD watch over you grant you some sort of peace – may this blog continue to help heal you


  2. gatito2 says:

    Thank you so much.


  3. The last lines of Kaitlyn’s heavenly little poem may have touched you most deeply, Rhonda, but the lines that this little eleven year-old girl wrote here were the ones that leaped off of the page for me. I’m sure that Kaitlyn’s angels delighted in making her smile and no doubt went the extra mile for her.

    Are perfect, in every way.
    They love to make you smile,
    And when you’re very sad,
    They go the extra mile


  4. gatito2 says:

    You have a point there Randall. Thank you for helping me see in a new light.


  5. Pure coincidence (?!) caused me to stumble upon this commentary about angels just an hour or two after I replied above. From the DailyOM blog, here is an excerpt from Dawn Lianna’s “A Year of Angels in Your Inbox”:

    “Angels are among us everyday. They love us immensely and cherish the opportunity to have contact with us. The value of having angels in our lives is unsurpassed in sweetness and love.

    People who connect with the angels report an increase in the grace in their lives. They find blessings and miracles in the small events of their day as their lives are touched by the feeling of angelic love and nurturance.

    Did you know that when you invite the angels into your life, it increases the angel’s stewardship and ability to help you? We live in free will and the angels are right here among us, yet they cannot interfere with our free will. As you call them in, you allow them greater access to your life and give them deeper permission to support you and your loved ones. They are always happy to be of service and assistance to you.

    I want to share with you a little bit about how I receive angelic messages and how you might open to receive your own angel messages. I’ve been hearing the angels my entire life and teaching people to listen to them for many years.

    Messages from the angels are often simple and yet deeply profound. The angels speak repeatedly of their love for us.

    To receive a message from the angels, it’s important to sit very quietly and go into a meditative state. Call your angels and invite to come around you. Simply invite telepathically. They will hear you and come. I often say something like, “Beloved angels, please come in very close and help me to sense you”. If you want to write your own angel message, take out a paper and pen when you sit and wait quietly with your pen in your hand. Draw or write your impressions on the paper. Just let the words or pictures flow, trusting what you receive.

    The angels are right here with you, just waiting to connect more deeply so they can share with you their infinite love.

    To fully receive this angel message, slow down. Take a few minutes and let the message into your heart deeply. Allow it to penetrate and help you connect with your soul and with the angels. Throughout the day contemplate the message and call in your angels, by inviting them to join you in your daily life.

    Here is Your Angel Message for Today

    Lay Your Heart In Our Wings

    Imagine placing your heart in our wings. We are honored by your sweetness. Please connect with us more often. Place your heart against our heart. We feel your love. We are deeply touched by you and we are very happy to be participating with you. Today we encourage you to focus on joy. Stay in your heart and amp up the good feelings. All desires are wishes for good feelings. When you dream of a special place you are wishing for the good feeling. Let the good feelings roll.

    An angel’s wing touched you on the cheek just now. Know that you are home. We use our wings to cradle you. Lay your heart in our wings.


    The Angels
    For more information visit A Year of Angels in Your Inbox On-Line Course”


  6. gatito2 says:

    Wow Randall that was wonderful! I would love to connect with angels. I think I will try that. Obviously Kaitlyn connected with them a long time ago but I’m not so sure she felt it the last few years of her life. I know they met her 4-11-13 though. Thank you for that Randall.


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