“You’re Worried About Me, Aren’t you Momma?”

I dreamed of Kaitlyn this morning and wanted to type it down before it left my mind.

It was so vivid, we were sitting in a car parked somewhere and she was on the driver’s side, I was on the passenger side. She looked just like she did when she was 18 before she went away to college. She looked at me with that worried look on her face (a face she always had if she was very concerned about something, you could see it in her eyes and expression). She looked at me and said, “You’re worried about me, aren’t you Momma?” I said “Of course I’m worried about you. You’re here but you’re not really here.” I had a pack in my hands like Goodie Powders except is was some kind of medicine that was a strong pain medicine like Darvocet in it, (this kind of medicine does not exist) and she looked at me and asked, “Why do you take that stuff?” I said that I have to because I was in so much pain. “And besides, this is probably how you died.” (I know how she died and drugs were not involved, nor do I take narcotic pain medication of any sort). Then I looked up at where we had arrived, it was like a school. I turned back to my left and she was gone. Maybe my dream would have continued but it was 5 am and my husband woke up because he is used to getting up that early for work, even though it is Sunday. My cat Dagny was already at the head of my bed getting ready to pull at my hair to get me to feed him and Allyn got up. I laid there to try to go back to dream again, but sleep could not capture me again so I got up at 6 am.

I don’t know what this dream meant, but it was so vivid.


About gatito2

My name is Rhonda. I'm a registered nurse, for the last 20 years, that has not been able to work since the day I learned of my daughter's death by suicide 4-12-13. (She actually died 4-11-13 and her body was not found until the 12th) Me and my husband have been married for 32 years and he's a wonderful man. We grieve in different ways. He works, I write. This is my journey through this horrible land of losing a child..
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6 Responses to “You’re Worried About Me, Aren’t you Momma?”

  1. Topaz says:

    Hi Rhonda,

    Would it be okay if I offered my thoughts on your dream? I wanted to ask first. Either way, I totally understand.


  2. gatito2 says:

    Yes, by all means, please do Topaz. I’ll be waiting….


  3. I think the whole point of the dream was to tell you not worry about Kaitlyn. She is fine. But I’ll refrain from offering any other comments about your “vivid” dream because I, too, am interested in Topaz’ interpretation of the dream. I was impressed that he politely asked first.


  4. gatito2 says:

    I know, I’m waiting on his interpretation too.


  5. Gemma says:

    Thank you very much for sharing your vivid, mysterious dream. I agree with Randall – I believe it was Kaitlyn telling you she is fine. Naturally, although this might be a tiny comfort, it doesn’t change the overwhelming wish for her to be with you in this physical realm.

    Your post really struck me, as I had a dream with similar themes the other night. I dreamed that my loved one who died by suicide was talking with me, except I think it was more like telepathic communication. I said to him something like, “It’s hard for me to understand how we’re talking about your death when you’re not really dead” and he said, “The reason you can’t believe I’m dead is because I’m not.”

    I had previous dreams in which he showed me his stomach (he stabbed himself there to end his life). In the first dream there was just a tiny scar and in the second dream there was no scar. I interpreted this to mean he is now in a place of healing and love.

    In another dream, I was standing on a wharf and he approached the wharf in a boat. I was looking at him and he looked slightly bemused but not sad. I took that to mean he is now travelling elsewhere and wants the loved ones left behind to go on with our lives. If only it was that simple.

    Lots of love to you xox


  6. gatito2 says:

    Thank you. I loved your dreams. They must be very comforting. I believe that there is truth to many dreams like this and that our loved one really is trying to contact us or tell us something. It’s just that this last dream I had of Kaitlyn really had no ending and I was left kind of hanging. I can still see that very worried look on her face. As I thought about it hours and days after, I began to think that it was her way of telling me she knows how very much I’m suffering from her loss and how I lost her. But I hope so very much that she does NOT know and is at great peace.


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