What if I were to go down to Independence Mall, go to Charlotte Russe and go to the little ottomans they have near the dressing rooms and sit there? Wonder what they would think? I can see the lady coming to me now saying, “Can I help you?” I would just say that I sat in this very spot the week before my daughter died and waited on her to try on clothes. I can just tell her I’m waiting for her to come out again. Wonder what she would think?
What if I went to The Shoe Department in that same mall, take a seat on the right hand side of the store, where she last looked at them and just sit there and visualize the last time she tried on shoes? What if I did that? What if I sat there appearing to look into space, only to be seeing her walking in them to see how they looked? Wonder what they would think?
What if I were to go into that mall’s food court and just stand there amidst the tables and just breathe in that wonderful smelling food like we did the last time we went through as we were trying desperately not to succumb to the temptation to sit down and eat. We had plans to eat at another mall. What if I were just to stand there, breathing in, remembering, never sitting down to eat? What would they think?
What if I went to Mayfaire Shopping Center to Victoria’s secret and just plundered around in all the bras trying to find the one she last bought when we were there, just to remember what it looked like, and to wonder where it went? What would they think when I just held it in my hands remembering the day she bought it, knowing that she probably died in it? Wonder what they would think?
What if I were to go to Longhorn Steakhouse and order two meals, a petite steak and a large one and just leave the petite steak on the other side of me with no one there to eat it? Wonder what they would think?
What if I went to the cinema at Mayfaire, stand in the lobby all by myself in the spot that I last saw her holding that big drink smiling sweetly at me before we went into the movie? What if I got a seat all by myself and left one empty beside me, telling anyone that asks “is this seat taken?” And saying that it was in fact taken, only to remain empty? Wonder what they would think?
I wonder what they would think.