Monthly Archives: December 2013

Pablo Neruda, Patch Adams and Kaitlyn

I’ve always loved the movie Patch Adams and had not watched it in a long time. I’m kind of strange in the fact that since Kaitlyn died, I try to avoid most movies that have anything to do with doctors … Continue reading

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So Many Beautiful Lives Gone

I belong to a forum for people that have lost loved ones to suicide. This is a video a guy made that just lost his girlfriend last month. It made me cry. I feel so bad for him….for her….her family. … Continue reading

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The Rain and the New Year

I love days like today; when it rains so much and so hard that it reflects how I feel inside and the tears I have shed since 4-12-13. Only I have shed more tears than this day ever will. So … Continue reading

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The Baking Pans

I was just washing dishes just now and the last items I washed were 2 baking cookie sheet pans. I use them for French fries, cookies, chicken wings and that sort of thing. Mine was battered, bent, scratched, had burnt … Continue reading

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Now It’s Over

Now it’s the day after Christmas and I feel that the veil of comfort and the shield that protected me from the horror of being totally enveloped in grief has lifted and disintegrated. Back to reality and the missing of … Continue reading

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A Final Word on Christmas without Kaitlyn

Just a final word for today. I feared that this Christmas would be such an agonizing event that I may not have been able to leave my house. Not having Kaitlyn here for Christmas is so horrible and I saw … Continue reading

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Merry Christmas Kaitlyn

In 30 seconds. Kaitlyn was 9 years old.

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