I had posted earlier about having a tree this year after all. I had not wanted to do anything for Christmas and just hide and hope it goes away soon. But then I remembered how very much Kaitlyn loved Christmas and how much she loved a real tree. When she was growing up she did not want a fake tree, only real ones. Once she went away to college we started putting up artificial ones. Well I decided to buy a real tree and decorate it with things that remind me of the many things in Kaitlyn’s life, throughout her life from childhood to adulthood. For instance I have ornaments like this: A miniature book, chess set with 2 pieces (all ornaments are small), sushi, crochet needles, Many angels which are a 12 pack of crystal angels and a 12 pack of tin angels, African animals, French fries (inside joke we had), a monkey (another inside joke we had) many cats, squirrels (she named a squirrel Harry when she was little, they have all been Harry ever since), many dragonflies, Harry Potter, an armament of a galaxy, Christmas frames with pictures of her and our family in them, a snowman, Mickey Mouse, SpongeBob Squarepants, Barney, a wine glass, the leg lamp in the movie A Christmas Story, 2 stars, and this is just all I can think of now.
This has been very therapeutic for me and has helped me honor Kaitlyn’s wonderful memory of her life instead of sticking my head in the sand until Christmas goes away.
Here are 3 pics of my tree. It does not show the ornaments well from this distance, but I would bombard ya’ll if I put individual pics of my ornaments on here. Also, it does not look like the tree is full of ornaments but it is. You just can’t see some of them well from the distance. I put no lights on the tree fearing my cats would eat through them. Surprisingly they have not climbed up in the tree or messed very much with the ornaments. I’m shocked.
This has helped me, but I am still so very sad and cry everyday, most of the time several times. But this has helped.