Just a final word for today. I feared that this Christmas would be such an agonizing event that I may not have been able to leave my house. Not having Kaitlyn here for Christmas is so horrible and I saw her everywhere I went. But it was not as horrible as I thought it would be. I was sad and I missed her so very much but something was going on inside my soul that gave me some kind of peace or buffer or numbness or….I don’t know what it was. I could even laugh, and did, many times. I felt Kaitlyn was with us. I know she was with me today helping me to enjoy our family. But oh how I miss you Kaitlyn. Thank you for being with me so strongly that I made it. I think it was your love for Christmas that I embraced it so much this year….for you. I know what Christmas is about, the birth of Jesus, but I also know it was something you so enjoyed. I did it for you.
I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, but by gosh I made it through Christmas.
I love you and I miss you my beautiful girl.