I’m Scared

Ok, I’m scared. I’ve been going over my book again for the last couple of days, reading it all the way through, making sure I want to put out to the world what is in these pages before I send it in. Now I have the jitters. I will be sending it in in a few days and I am so wondering if I want to throw mine and Kaitlyn’s life out there like I’m doing. However, I already have here on FB and my blog. Though my book includes some select posts on my blog, it’s all newly written material.

So, I’m scared. Kaitlyn was a very talented writer and I hope I don’t cause any shame to her memory with my amateur writing because she deserves something good in her memory, and those out there that need to read what I have to say, need to have something that makes my point strongly. I hope it does that.
But I am so scared. Very much so.

About gatito2

My name is Rhonda. I'm a registered nurse, for the last 20 years, that has not been able to work since the day I learned of my daughter's death by suicide 4-12-13. (She actually died 4-11-13 and her body was not found until the 12th) Me and my husband have been married for 32 years and he's a wonderful man. We grieve in different ways. He works, I write. This is my journey through this horrible land of losing a child..
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10 Responses to I’m Scared

  1. judy herring says:

    RHONDA YOU HAVE NO REASON TO BE SCARED. YOU ARE LETTING ANYONE THAT IS SUFFERING OR KNOWS ANYONE WHO IS SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION KNOW THEY CAN GET HELP AND THEY ARE NEVER ALONE. KAITLYN WOULD NEVER BE ASHAMED OF YOU FOR ANY REASON. YOU ARE TELLING THE WORLD WHAT SHE COULD NOT TELL —NOT EVEN YOU. NOW YOU ARE TELLING HER STORY FROM YOUR HEART AND SOUL.
    I LOVE YOU ALL AND ALWAYS PRAYING FOR YOU.
    JUDY

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  2. gatito2 says:

    Thank you Judy. I love you.

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  3. Amy says:

    Press through the fear and know that your words will help others as well as yourself to heal. Thank you for opening your heart and sharing. Amy

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  4. Author Catherine Townsend-Lyon says:

    Rhonda,
    I sure know how you feel! I felt the same way to before I handed my writings to a friend who is an editor and then to a publisher. Even though BOTH told me my Memoir needed to be out in the world helping others with issues of addiction, recovery, mental illness and being a child sex abuse survivor, I did share some dark family secrets. I had to give others an clear “Insight: to how those old wounds and hurts effected me in MY life, and added fuel to my addiction, because I had no idea how to heal with proper clinical and therapy help. I was worried people would “Judge” me on my PAST, even though my PAST is not who I am today.

    Guess what?? I have not gotten ONE BAD Review on of my book and story.!! All my reviews have been 5 Star on Amazon! DON’T worry about others, think about al the “Parents” who have also lost their child, and how YOU are going HELP them and keep your daughters memory alive….

    God Bless, *Catherine*

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  5. gatito2 says:

    Thank you Catherine for your encouragement.

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  6. You write beautifully, from a painful heart that communicates extremely well. Let your heart continue to guide you. Others need to read your/Kaitlyn’s story. Love, Paulette

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  7. gatito2 says:

    Thank you Paulette.

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  8. Gemma says:

    Your writing is beautiful, heartfelt and evocative. Your book is going to help so many people.

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  9. gatito2 says:

    Thank you Gemma.

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