I wonder if there is anyone in the world besides me that has left their children’s childhood drawings and creations on their refrigerator as long as I have.
Here is one side of my refrigerator taken just a few minutes ago. On it you will see two pictures Kaitlyn drew; one of a barn and one of someone fishing on a pier. She was very little when she did this. Also you will see a paper flower she made. She always loved flowers. There is also a round drawing of patterns that is very intricate and took her a long time to do. And there is her name with bright colors surrounding it. There is a picture of Stephanie that is laminated with a very sweet little saying next to it along with her hand prints made when she was a little girl. There’s a picture Stephanie drew that was made into a magnet. There’s a couple of Kaitlyn’s report cards on there too.
All of them just as I put them there when my children gave them to me so many years ago.
I don’t leave them there because I’m too lazy to put them away or anything like that. I left them there to remember them as children. I leave them there now to remember everything. Now that Kaitlyn is gone they cry out to me. I am quite certain that when I die one day, they will still be right there on my refrigerator.
I always told Allyn that I missed my girls being little girls once they grew up. But I was comforted to know that I got to enjoy them and watch them progress into adulthood and reach their dreams.
I feel cheated that I did not get to see Kaitlyn many years of her adulthood. But I’m even sadder that Kaitlyn was cheated. Cheated out of everything. Everything.