I wanted to post a clip of the movie “Rabbit Hole” with Nicole Kidman. In this movie her little boy was hit by a car and killed and she and her husband are trying to learn how to live in the hell that is left behind. Our stories are different, but the pain left behind is similar, only my girl was 23 and she caused her own death which involves so many more feelings of guilt and bewilderment and shock. I’m not saying any other death than suicide is not traumatic by any means and certainly losing a small child like this woman did is horrific. It all comes down to horrible, horrible pain and you do feel like you’ve gone down the rabbit hole.
I wanted to show this clip because the woman in this movie acts SO much like me. From what she says at the group meeting (that she did not want to go to), to the standing at the frig looking at the things he made (I still have things Kaitlyn made as a child because I never took them down….even all these years later, they are still there), to going through the clothes, the goodwill, the fighting with the husband because it puts such a strain on the marriage….ALL of it is just like me.