I’ve been thinking about something lately. I’ve been really hoping for a new dream visit from Kaitlyn. Anyone that has kept up with my blog for a while knows that I’ve had a few dreams about her since her death that I don’t view as simply dreams. I feel it was her coming to see me at different stages of her life to give me messages, explanations and the gift of feeling her presence again. I did not dream about Kaitlyn until a few months after her death, but my niece had 3 before then of Kaitlyn where Kaitlyn wanted her to give me a message. I have had 5 dreams of Kaitlyn since her death. She was at different ages in each one. I got distinct messages from her in each one and I could see, feel, hear, and smell her.
The last time I dreamed of her was in February. Now here it is June and I’ve not gotten another one. They followed no rules….once I dreamed of her twice in one month, sometimes I would go a few months before I dreamed about her.
The last one I dreamed of her I posted about it here. It did not make it into my book because I had finished my book by then. Here is the post I made of it and my interpretation of it. https://welding81.wordpress.com/2014/02/23/i-saw-kaitlyn-in-my-dream-this-morning/
But as these months have gone by, I feel that the tram she got on with all the other people was not taking her to the university she was attending, but was taking her away to wherever it is people go when they die. Perhaps that was her last visit with me as she has had to move on and she has told me all she can tell me and comforted me all she has the power to do and she had to simply go now.
Yes, she is forever in my heart, my soul, my mind, my being, in every molecule of my being…..but no matter what anyone tells you, it is NOT in any way the same as having them physically here of course.
I so wish I could dream of her again. Maybe I will one day. But maybe she has had to go on.