Ever since I was a little girl I have had this fascination with space. Everything in the cosmos that is so infinite. The fact that our galaxy, The Milky Way, where our planet is home, has billions of stars in it. Our sun is merely a star and there are billions of them, larger and smaller in our galaxy alone. We have not even fully begun to explore the depths of our own galaxy. Many of these stars have their own planets with their own moons. More planets are being discovered every day outside of our own universe. Take that information and if that is not amazing enough, know that there are billions MORE galaxies out there that have their own billions of stars that have their own planets and some with their own moons and that stretches your mind farther then what you can even conceive of. THAT kind of thing is what moves me.
All my life I have believed in life in other worlds far beyond us. That made me very unique in my family, or anyone that I knew personally. But what are the odds? We can’t be alone. The fact that we don’t have the ability to get to these places, does not mean a way to do this does not exist, we have just not found a way yet. There are methods of travel that defy time that we have not conceived of yet. I have always looked up and wondered….I still do.
Also the questions of what is the meaning of life, what are we here for, why is there so much evil in the world along with the good, why do such bad things happen and then such good things? Why have people since the beginning of time waged wars in the name of religion? Why do we as a species have so much evil in us, but yet such a capacity for good? Why are some so very intelligent, and some are not? Are we some experiment or some experiment gone wrong? For someone that takes their religion at face value these questions are not something they dwell on….it’s just the way it is and we will all know some day. Though I do believe in God and even that Jesus came to save us, I believe there’s so much more to the story than what we as humans have been allowed to know so far. These things are NOT all there is. They simply aren’t. That is my belief.
Unfortunately my beliefs or wonderings makes me the kind of person that questions the ways of the world all the time. Once in a while I envy the person that only goes from day to day just thinking about the business of making it in this world and nothing more. Only sometimes. But it’s lonely feeling like this. I could post this on Facebook and hear crickets I swear. Not many replies would be made because so many people just don’t think about these things.
Is my Kaitlyn out there in the cosmos somewhere? What form has she taken? Where is heaven? What is she doing? I do believe in life after death. I cannot conceive that our soul ceases being simply when our body stops functioning. But where it goes and what form it takes I don’t know. I wish I did. I want to know what she is doing. But that is impossible.
As I have posted in the past, I love the new series “Cosmos: A Space Time Odyssey” with Neil Degrasse Tyson. The late astrophysicist Carl Sagan hosted this series years ago (but I didn’t know about it then so never saw it) and this is a new version of it and I simply sit there with my mouth open the whole time. Especially last night, the season finale when it showed a section of Carl Sagan’s speech about our Pale Blue Dot. It put into words so many of the thoughts and feelings and realizations that I have had since I was a young child that no one ever seems to sit down and contemplate. It moved me so much. It takes a lot to move me now a days since I lost my kindred spirit that I talked to about these things….my Kaitlyn.
During this speech it shows the cosmos as shown by the space probe Voyager which was launched in 1977. Can you believe that thing is still traveling farther and farther into space and we can still communicate with it and get info? I think that is amazing. So years ago they turned its camera backward facing earth as it is traveling in space and with these images Carl Sagan spoke very wise words that moved me. That let me know somewhere in this world people think about these things. I am not alone, though I feel like I am.
Now the Voyager is in interstellar space (way on far past our solar system) and it should be running until 2025. At that time it will shut down, no longer able to propel itself and it will probably float around out there until….forever. Maybe thousands or millions of years from now some life form will find it and read the messages we have on it and listen to the recordings we have and they may or may not know who we were. Amazing.
I end this long post with the video that so inspired me last night. Maybe someone out there will understand why it does inspire me. I hope so.
Am I alone?