An Innocent Time

A few months ago I had all my VHS tapes converted to DVD. Once upon a time I was an avid video taper, taping everything I possibly could of my little family. I feared that the VHS tapes would one day disintegrate or maybe simply there would be nothing to watch them on anymore. So I had them converted. I wanted to leave them for my daughter Stephanie.

I was watching them yesterday and came across one I had completely forgotten about.

This is when I was around 32 years old, Kaitlyn was around 2 and Stephanie around 6. I was in nursing school and thank goodness I had a regular job to go to as I would have never made it as a guitar player or singer.  Just know that I had not picked up a guitar in about 8 years and was never really good at it to start with and I had not practiced beforehand and did not know how to play any of the songs we tried to sing except a little of the song I sung part of at the end. But this video is really not about that.

The reason I wanted to show it is show of a time when all was right with the world. I had a wonderful husband (still do), I was in nursing school about to start a new career, we had our little home and most importantly, I had my sweet, beautiful girls.

This is a time when I had it all and my daughter’s lives loomed out before them. Thank God I didn’t know what would happen 21 years into the future, the worst thing I could ever imagine.

But here we were, in happy times…..though I’m sure they were traumatized by this event. I may have sounded a bit irritable in some places….:)

Don’t ever take anything in life for granted. But you know what, I never, ever did. I knew how lucky I was….always.

About gatito2

My name is Rhonda. I'm a registered nurse, for the last 20 years, that has not been able to work since the day I learned of my daughter's death by suicide 4-12-13. (She actually died 4-11-13 and her body was not found until the 12th) Me and my husband have been married for 32 years and he's a wonderful man. We grieve in different ways. He works, I write. This is my journey through this horrible land of losing a child..
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4 Responses to An Innocent Time

  1. jmgoyder says:

    What a wonderful mother you are – this is beautiful Rhonda.


  2. T. D. Davis says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss.


  3. gatito2 says:

    Thank you. I loved messing around with them.


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