“……a gift you never intended to receive”

Kaitlyn, it’s now 6-11-13, two months since you have been gone. My life will never be the same without you in it; without your bright sunshine you always brought to me. Your whole life all I had to do is think of you and my heart would feel like it swelled up and tears would come to my eyes, just from thinking about you. That’s how special you were. In your 23 years, you brought more joy into our lives, than most people receive in a lifetime. That was your gift to us. In your 23 years, you lived, and you lived well, you lived fully, and I do believe mostly happy.

I will love you forever, and in my heart you will forever be. Everything you did is set in my memory and my memory is long.

Ever since I found this poem you wrote years ago since your death, it always makes me feel like maybe you knew. You knew something we didn’t. Sometimes the brightest and most beautiful flowers are only with us a short time:

“And when it died in the dusk of fading lights and fading colors, you stood in reverence as you do at the funeral of a man who lived well. Shed a tear but smiled in acceptance of a gift you never intended to receive.” – Kaitlyn Elkins

Kaitlyn Elkins


About gatito2

My name is Rhonda. I'm a registered nurse, for the last 20 years, that has not been able to work since the day I learned of my daughter's death by suicide 4-12-13. (She actually died 4-11-13 and her body was not found until the 12th) Me and my husband have been married for 32 years and he's a wonderful man. We grieve in different ways. He works, I write. This is my journey through this horrible land of losing a child..
This entry was posted in Uncategorized and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

3 Responses to “……a gift you never intended to receive”

  1. People never seem to realize the emotional toles taken on those they leave behind. This is a short story I wrote in college to help cope with a friend’s suicide:


  2. gatito2 says:

    That was a wonderful story. It was very moving. You never do know what is going on in someone’s heart and mind, unless they want you to know. You are an excellent writer.


  3. Thank you. It does suck to think you could have done something, when in the end knowing you couldn’t have because they wouldn’t let you.


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s