Yesterday we participated in the Out of the Darkness Walk for suicide prevention for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention in Myrtle Beach, SC. It was a great success and our team was number one at the time for donations received, but donations are accepted for teams until the end of December.
We had a very good turnout for the team and our walking area was a path on the sidewalks within the unique shopping area called Broadway at the Beach.
There were announcements, and an award given for the best volunteer which went to my niece Lisa Soles who was our team captain. She worked very hard for months on this and is the one that formed our group, ordered T-Shirts and all kinds of things.
We walked and there was a two person band that sang songs and they were wonderful.
I have to admit, I was not prepared for the emotion that hit me full force during the event. I felt it coming on before I got there. Seeing Kaitlyn’s pictures on posters and on the memory board tore my heart in two because she should not be there. There should not even be a need for this type of event, but there is a GREAT need in that it helps prevent suicide and causes awareness. But it hurt like blazes and I felt I was at her funeral all over again, but it was worth it and I will do it again next year and I will continue to be an advocate for suicide prevention for the rest of my life and as I get stronger (if I do) I will do more and more. It hurts, but I will do it. I will do it for Kaitlyn; I will do it for others.
Our group consisted mostly of our family, the ones that were physically able to come and some friends. Also was Kaitlyn’s best friend Neal Timpe who has kept in regular touch with me since Kaitlyn’s death and has visited us and he lives hours away. He’s a source of great strength to me. Kaitlyn had this amazing ability to pick friends that had the most wonderful traits; integrity, honesty, intelligence, depth of character and many other wonderful attributes. He surely fits that category. He is like me in that he finds that by talking about Kaitlyn, it helps him work out his grief and he misses her so much, as we all do.
Below is a picture of our group. (but somehow two of our friends in the group are missing from the picture). I’m the one with the blonde hair and the brown jacket on and my husband is to the left of me. My daughter Stephanie (who is to the right of me) and her husband Steve. Thank you to all of you. All of you are a great source of strength to me. I love you all.
Also I’m including a song that was sung at the event that caused me to really lose my composure. I was not prepared for what it did to my heart.
Also, here is a link to The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention: http://www.afsp.org/